The big sleep is over…

Ciao, amd welcome back to…ME!

I know, I know, there has been a long pause since my last pause.

This was due to many changes happening in my life and the need of focusing on them, in order to take the right decisions.

It hasn’t been easy, not really. But now I can finally say I am back! Happy and full of energy again. I really hope to be able to commit to posting once  or twice a week, to tell you more about Stockholm, my travels and my life.

And what day would be better than a Monday the 1st to start again?

A big hug from (already) cold Stockholm,

Arianna

I LOVE YOU, JELLY-BELLY!

My posts are usually pretty superficial and I don’t share anything more private than a kiss to my son or to my handsome Morgan. But today something changed and I want to tell you about it.

When I get dressed this morning I started, like every single morning, to repeat to myself how fat I am, how disgusting my body is, how flappy my belly is, how unattractive and not sexy I am…and so on.
And you know what? I am pretty tired of it, because it hurts.
It hurts.
It hurts and it breaks me to pieces.
It hurts so much, to never ever feel fine in your own body.

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not pregnant – just noodles!”

I wish I was stronger and not care about other people’s (and, in first place, mine) judgement.
I wish I was one of those girls who don’t give a fu*k and just do their things anyway.
Like Sarah Dahlström. I have been following her and her inspirational account for months now and I have to tell you: SHE IS A BADASS.
Life hasn’t always been sweet to her and still here she is, speaking up for every woman’s right to feel beautiful indipendently by their body shapes and forms!
Or like Cassandra Klatzkow, beautiful venus in size plus! Sexy and elegant all the time, she is divine!

I wish I could say I am not influenced by what I see all the time on my social media feeds.
I wish I could say I don’t envy those goddesses dressed in mini-bikini posing in acrobatic yoga poses.
Or those top models, portrayed as heavily pregnant when, to me, they seem just a little bit bloated.
Celebrities and personal trainers, ”no I don’t want my jelly belly to be flat like yours…
Unfortunately it is not like this and I have to come peace with myself and accept that I will never look like that in my life
(Självklart! Of course! If i eat all those biscuits at work and barely training, what to expect?)

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“my belly keeps me warm in cold Swedish winter”

But what I can – and WILL – do is to stop suffering.
Suffering for not being what i wish I looked like. I want to accept myself and body for what I am!

So, today I feel pretty inspired and I decided to change my morning routine and try see what is beautiful in me. My morning mantras will no longer be ”my belly is a disgusting and I am a fat rat” .

NO.

From now on my morning mantras will be like ”my belly is a cozy pillow for my son”. Or ”my belly keeps me warm in cold Swedish winter”. ”my belly makes me happy”. “my belly is beautiful and I know it“…

I LOVE YOU, JELLY BELLY!

Both profiles are in Swedish, but if you´d like to check, have a look to Sarah’s account here and Cassandra’s here!

When Nonna comes to town…

Ciao everyone!

My blog sat quiet for some long days. But this was not due to laziness, but because I had a very special guest in town: my super-fantastic mom! 🙂

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Selfie in the snow! Guest star: my mom! 🙂

We have spent an amazing week together. We went for high tea, visited museums, had some shopping, but most we enjoyed each other company!

It was so good and now, that she has left to go back to her life in southern Europe, I miss her like crazy.

Soon some posts on our days out with some interesting venues-suggestions to explore here in Stockholm!

Wish all of you a fantastic continuation!

Ciao, and welcome to my blog!

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Ciao a tutti!

My name is Arianna, I live in Stockholm and work as Administrative Assistant for an IT Company. I am madly in love with Morgan, my sambo (in Swedish sambo, or sammanboende, means partner) and my son Linus. Like every full-time working mom, my life is hectic and I don’t have much free time to spend on something that is not family- or work-related.

That’s why, among my many resolutions for 2018, there was the idea to create something that it was interesting for me to pursue, to feel committed to and that was mine, only mine. So, I have decided to start this blog, a me-space, where I can tell a bit about myself, my life in Sweden and, in general, about the things I like and I am interested in.

So, welcome! And have fun reading my posts!

Your sincerely, Arianna